onsdag 16 september 2009

Cheerleading

I am only cheerleading. I don't have anything else right now, but the sad part is that I don't even have enough money to pay everything I already should have paid to be on the team. The thought of that hits me to the ground every time I think about it.




I haven't paid for this bag yet either.

måndag 14 september 2009

Jane Doe

My sister's computer and my MP3 doesn't agree with each other, I can't charge it or put music in it. Instead I turned on my computer, put songs from Alicia Keys album "Songs in A minor" and MJ's "History" on it just so I could put those songs in my MP3. Phew! The computer is right now so I can charge my MP3 while I sit here by the computer with internet...

Today we ate a nice dinner and mudcake at grandma and ma's place.

Today's song is Jane Doe with Alicia Keys.

torsdag 3 september 2009

Confidence

For some strange reason, people get the idea that I have low self-esteem and that I'm insecure. I talk quietly, but that has nothing to with being insecure.

To quote a woman on Oprah, who had been overweight: "I don't feel the need to be loud. I get attention anyway."

I don't feel the need to be loud either - unless I have something important to say and when I do You will hear me.

I think that I am very attractive and often also sexy and I give myself the right to say things like that about myself(I'm not going to apologise about liking myself).

I love my body, I love my big butt that often needs size Large while my upper body is a Small/Medium. When my stomach is bloated I don't feel on top, but it's normal more often then it's bloated and to have a bloated stomach is nothing unusual so I don't put much energy thinking about that. I think that I have great legs, my thighs are pretty big, but they fit me very well.

I also think that my body is similar to Beyoncé's and she's a goddess. She's not perfect either, but flaws can easily be covered with posture and clothes that enhances other things, or body parts...

I've built my self-esteem from inside by concentrating on the things I like about myself and if there is something that isn't "perfect" like a scar, I think that most people have them so I don't give a crap.

I NEVER compare myself with someone that has a flatter stomach, muscular arms, breast that are the same size(haha) because it doesn't do me any good. I can give compliments and think that others are beautiful and hot, but that doesn't make me any less attractive.